What does it take to knock you off track when you’re trying to reach a goal? Migraines do it to me sometimes. Although, while I’m sitting here pain-free, I wonder if I could try pushing through the pain to write anyway. I’ll take my medication of course, but can I keep going while I wait for it to work? I’m no glutton for punishment, but I have noticed simply setting an ambitious goal with a hard deadline seems to be followed by a migraine. Is it my fear trying to make me run away from a scary task? If I show my body that I’m not going to run away, would I have fewer migraines?
Other times, it takes much less to derail me. An annoyance with misbehaving technology or a late meal is enough to put me in a bad mood. And apparently, a bad mood is an excuse not to write. At least, in that moment it seems that way. If I look back some day and realize I didn’t achieve my goals because I couldn’t eat lunch on time and got irritated, how will I feel then?
I love your last sentence! In the moment, that late lunch seems like EVERYTHING, but tomorrow we’ve forgotten all about it. Migraines are horrible. Self care is important, but it could be a good experiment to just write for ten minutes in spite of the headache. It would be interesting to see whether it gets any better.
Yes, you are correct — that one thing (whatever it may be for each person) can just fill up your vision and seem like everything. I am very slowly learning to listen when I tell myself that negative feelings are temporary.